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RE: Going to the spiritulist church tonight


Thanks Lula, I appreciate that, and no your'e fine on what you said, do you know I've learnt to live with all these years, but the only fear I have, is that I cannot swim underwater, maybe the shock of what I saw, came out within all those years, as my father was with me at the time and he witnessed as well the trauma, and the shock of that for him, turned his hair white, as a little girl, I can always remember my father with dark hair and good eyesight, but it tooks it toll on him and gave him cataracts and white hair! made him look old before his time, all because of what we saw, and believe me I would never want to witness what I saw that day, and as for being only a small girl myself.

I just wondered why all of a sudden they all came to me, could be that i have left myself open and all the conversations that i have been having with my friend in the states have somehow made me a reciever somehow!, or it could be that Chris, my friend, has decided to put a spell on mebiggrin as he use to practice Wiccan, white magic, knowing him, anything is possiblebiggrinbiggrin as when i talk with him, all my cares seem to lift away, as though we are soulmates, so maybe he has,  which you would understand Lula, as being spiritual yourself, and myself just beginning to learnaww

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gosh Scorpio, what a very traumatic thing to happen to you as a little girl. I'm not suprised you were in tears with so much emotion going through you. I hope you find this group a supportive and caring way to help heal some of that pain.
I don't know if you'll find this helpful, its something I do when trying to heal some deep and possibly buried emotions from childhood that I know are still effecting me now, and that somehow blocking them creates more ongoing problems than the fear of me going within and facing them. I often do some healing on myself by connecting with the little girl within me, i just do some meditation or relaxation to get comfortable. Then i kind of go inside myself, the child in me doesn't live in my head or mind, more in my heart or solar plexus or other emotional centres. So i kind of imagine a beautiful safe place and just ask my inner child to come along and talk to me. Listen to what she says without judgment, let her shout, cry or ignore me. Very interesting what i get sometimes. The important thing is to just allow the child to express whatever they want, not to advise but always be very loving and thank the child for what they have shared. Its a way to express emotion and maybe move some of it, with your own adult self being your own healer. I know you are a spiritual person Scorpio so this bit might appeal to you, I also ask my guardian angel or spirit guide, or whatever is for you your highest self, to come with me to this special place to help with the healing. It's important to let you inner child know how beautiful and wonderful they are, give them all they need and let them know you'll be back before you go. Amazing how children, so sensitive so receptive, can carry alot of feelings of guilt and lack of self worth. And i find doing this helps to heal some of that. May sound crazy, but i've experienced some amazing shifts this way. And I think it's a beautiful way to love yourself and to love and honour the child who may have experienced alot of pain they never got to express. Please forgive me if this is unwanted suggestion or am barking up the wrong tree!smile.gif
Wonderful that this came up for you at the meeting, you were saying a few weeks ago how you weren't sure if anything would come through for you smile.gif
Anyway, sending loads of hugs to you and you inner child from me and mine lol! smile.gif


-- Edited by lula at 14:26, 2008-04-10

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Do you know Lula, i was so moved by the experience, that i was in tears on the way home, I had seen pics of my grandmother with me, but I can't remember her too well, what the medium said about her wanting her children around her and loved her family, just brought all the emotion to the surface.
It seems grandmothers are always with us, as in your grandmother too, and I can understand how your dad see's it, as my family is not really into this eitherhmm I think they see us as loopy,blankstare
What makes it all the more upsetting regarding my cousin, as I was only 7 when i found her drowned in a bath, thats why the medium said, she should never have crossed over, i try to block it, but its a living memory, that has haunted me for many years, I can see it, everything that happened that day, when we was together up until that awful moment, as clear as looking at a pic!!

I think the more we are in tune withourselves, the more chance they have of coming to us when we need them, and what was said about me last night, I think my family new somehow I needed them

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wow. That must've been very powerful Scorpio! I love what you said about our loved ones who have passed over comforting us. I often feel my Nan, who always used to say she was coming back, much to my dad's horror (he really does not like to think about things beyond the seen world). I feel this warmth down one side and I know it's her, as if she is sitting on my bed. And I always find it very very moving and comforting and feel all this love around me. smile.gif


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I went again tonight to the church, and had the weirdest thing happen tonight!

A lady was sitting across from me was being spoken to by the medium, about a baby due in May, and a name of Paul on the earth plane, and could she take a girl between the ages of 13 and 15, well this woman couldn't place anything, so she asked the rest of us could we place any of the above,
I could as my daugter's baby is due around the end of may beginning of June,
my cousin is called Paul, and the girl who was aged 14 was my cousin who had drowned.
As this medium said she crossed over and should never had died, and she was with a lady in a wheelchair, well i was only 4 at the time, but my grandmother was in a wheelchair i was told just before she died.

This woman, was saying things to me that no one would know much in my family, how i put myself down, how i worry about my health, as I'm waiting on results good or bad about a minor op I had, and that I had a hard life, a life where i had to grow up very quick,

I've always been a great believer in the unknown, and tonight proved my point that somehow, our loved ones are always with us, they are there through our good times and our bad times, to try and comfort us when we are down, and are happy when we are happy!
So next time you feel a sudden draft or noises, or things moving about, which you can't explain, its our loved ones up in the spirit world, making sure we are okaww

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I had to give up the ghostbusting group for a while Lula, as our Leader for our London and Essex team has had to have a break for a couple of months or so for personal reasons, so if we wanted to we could have joined Surrey and Middlesex group for a while, but I have decided to give it a break as well, and concentrate on my spiritualist evenings, this week I'm going to join the awareness circle and see if I can bring out the abilities that I have been told I have, see what happenssmile

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I remember your ghostbusting group Scorpio! That'd be great if you were to go on another investigation like that. I loved seeing those photos with the orbs! smile.gif


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Do you know Lula, you was right, once I had been there last night, I had the best sleep for agessmile It did seem as though a massive weight had been shifted from my shoulders, funny though, the medium did say, that on a certain day around 11am, I will feel a sudden rush of energy, so maybe it's today,smile

I would love to know as well what kind of aftershave he wears , it is really peculiar how when you dream, something as trivial as a smell, can be so overpowering within your dream, it's as though it's the main factor of the dream, I wonder if our sense of smell is enhanced when we sleep? with the main senses of touch/smell/taste etc it's funny how one of the senses  seem to stand out so clearly.aww and why we remember that so vividly when we wake up!

The funny thing that got me thinking is what the female medium said to me!
She said the person whom i admire within a group, is that I have the ability to be just as good as themblankstare God knows what she was on about, maybe she was talking about the paranormal group I belong to, although I haven't been for ages, as our London team has had to suspend for a while due to the leader having personal problems, but I don't admire anyone there...lol, just all weird to me at the moment, once I focus, it should become clear.smile

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Thanks for the update Scorpio! I've been looking forward to hearing about your evening smile.gif sounds really positive, real confirmation of what you have yourself have wondering about for ages, your psychic ability. Hopefully you'll get the help you need with that now! Do you feel some of the dark energy has shifted since going? I hope so! biggrin.gif
Your Nic dream sounds lovely, if a bit frustrating if left so quickly. I really like the way you described his smell. I often wonder what Nic would smell like..call me weird! lol. It's funny because smell featured quite heavily in one of my Nic dreams too. Weird how that happens in sleep! smile.gif


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Thanks Lula, i just got it from the City of Angels DVD, took a snapshot of himbiggrin

Now for the big update of tonight

I was called tonight, by the main medium, he does tarot cards and clairvoyance, he told me I have a huge black cloud over me, that is blocking everything, My spirit guide is worried, he said they don't want to lose their instrument, meaning me, whatever that means, I have to get rid of this cloud, bad vibes really, perhaps this is why is have been feeling out of sorts for the past couple of weeks.cry
Then the female medium spoke to me on my own, she took me to one side and she told me a lady is worried for me, I have a male that is blocking my physic ability, she looked at my palm and told me the 2 stars on my hand is exactly like hers, and that if I can close my eyes and search for the white light, look for the light to lift the cloud, I could become a very good medium, I have the ability, but whoever this guy is around me is stopping me. I was told I can acheive better things, wonderful things will open up for me, once I learn to control my inner feelings and thoughts, and these dreams I'm having are part of my ability, which I must learn to useblankstare to trust in my instinct, go with the hunches I have, don't ignore them, that's what my stars have been telling me these past couple of weeks.
So in other words, I could become a very good physic, with a little help from them, my spirit guides/angels and myself, could open up a whole new dimensionsmile


As for my dream of Nickysmile, well it was weird, nothing sexual or naughty thoughtsbiggrin
I dreamnt that I was  in my eldest daughters bedroom, pottering around as usual, maybe cleaning her room, and I heard the doorbell go.
Now i had the TV on and I could hear voices downstairs, I couldnt make out who they were, so I chose to carry on with what I was doing!
All of a sudden, my daughter's bedroom door opens, and in walks Nic
I can even remember this chunky white jumper, something like Aaron knit, and he was wearing some nice jewellery as well, and he had this sort of messy look about him, his hair all out of place, but attractive with it, rugged look, but it was his aftershave, he was standing next to me, and all I could smell was this beautiful smell of aftershave, It was so vivid, it smelt like aqua marine, cool water aftershave, we must have been chatting for about 5 mins, when someone said that his men were coming to collect him in 3 mins with the car, that was that, the end of my dream, worse luckhmm
How weird was that dream, I could not make any sense of it at all, apart from the beautiful smell of aftershave , as though it was in my room as I was sleeping, maybe a spirit came to visit me during my sleep wearing that aftershave...LMAObiggrin


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p.s love your new avatar smile.gif

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hey perhaps we need more sunlight! You always seem to have a good level of awareness about yourself Scorpio. But sometimes its good to get the guidance as well isn't it? So i hope something crops up for you tonight!
Your dreams sound intriguing..care to share? smile.gifsmile.gif

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Thanks Lula, I appreciate the advice, I will deffinately look into it all, but I think you are deffinately right about that Luna eclipse, how it seems to have some influence over us, it's how you want to read into things like that,  I never knew that the moon can have some effects on us, I know it has some control over the tide and mother nature etc, but I didn't know it plays a big importance on the way it can control our emotions, especially around the times of the eclipse.smile

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I've never been to a spiritualist church, though I have had a few clairvoyant readings.
I'm so sorry to hear how you've been feeling the past coppola weeks Scorpio. I've been very up and down too, but I have been having some amazing insights as well. Sometimes things seem to speed up, get chaotic or hit a brick wall, but sometimes that's the turning point before things get better. A very wise spiritual friend once said to me that making a sumptuous cake involves breaking eggs and making a right old mess mixing it all up in a bowl and cooking it at a ridiculous temperature... Before you get a result. Also, that the coldest hour is the hour before dawn, but the sunrise always comes smile.gif.
I hope you get the answers you are looking for Scorpio, but if you don't, remember to trust you own intuition, and that you always have the power inside of you to steer the course you are on! smile.gif loving light right at ya! sun.gifbiggrin.gif


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With all the strange happenings and weird dreams I seem to be having, I thought I would pop off to the clairvoyance evening tonight, see if I have anyone come through to give me some newsaww
Lula is right about the Luna eclipse playing havoc over the last couple of weeks, I honestly seem stressed, moody, tearful,tired and just feeling out of sortshmm
So what with all the stars giving mixed messages, and my dreams lately, even one involving our Nicky, it's best to go and see what the hell is happeningblankstare
I may get a call or I may not, but at least it will put my mind at rest to go and just have a check, I may even join the awareness circle tomorrow night, and see what that may bringaww hopefully some good news for once in my lifeawwsmile

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